Mar 23, 2022

11 years sober this month. And instead of rehashing all the negative things that happened this March... I shall say naught..

 Haha. Just kidding. Took a week off of work, going back on Saturday. Had to have my blood pressure meds refilled so Doctor insisted on me having blood work done.  Liver enzymes over the top high. She wants me to go to the liver specialist (the same guy who did my ulcer repair, 11 years ago.) I said, give me three months. I'll go back on the no added sugar, diet, which I was doing so well on before the pandemic hit. personally I think it is a combination of poor diet and over the counter Tylenol and Excedrin and so forth. I've been taking A lot of that stuff for the arthritis and leg pain.  ....  So what have I been doing with my free time? Nothing. Went and had a tooth pulled. Made a batch of corned beef and cabbage which turned out great except the veggies were over cooked. Somewhat caught up on housework and laundry. Watching self help vids on how to plow through depression minus meds. Watched a Swedish movie called, "Border". https://www.imdb.com/title/tt5501104/    I think it's by the same guy who wrote " let the right on in" - my favorite vampire movie.

Probably won't be seeing my granddaughters this summer because her parents are angry at me for calling out the daughter in law (during their last visit which was cut short due the call out)  because she has been giving the girls sleeping pills..  For years. She is addicted to over the counter sleeping pills and she told me years ago that her mother was addicted to them. So it's a generational deal. Never really cared for her all that much but my son is madly in love with her so I tried to get along with her, especially since I usually only get to see them once a year. 

It's a dark and rainy day. Princess Stumperina Pumpkin is napping in the big chair. We are in the living room - listening to ambient - Data Rebel. It's almost 1pm and I haven't brushed my teeth yet. Have the kettle on for a cup of tea. A spot of tea. Maybe I'll watch A couple of episodes of "Doc Martin" later. I was watching "Pam and Tommy" on hulu. There were only 8 episodes. I was entertained. The actor who played the guy that actually stole the sex tape did a super job 😂 that was the best character. 

Back. (Remember in the chats when you typed, BRB and on return everyone typed, WB! 😊 just typing that is making me tear up.

 So I made tea and took two sinus pills. See there, not at work and still taking pills. It's a daily thing.  

Besides the fall out with daughter in law, I am furious that unlike other people, my liver has not recovered. It has remained fatty. Like, what was the point? I suppose the point was that I didn't want to die an undignified death in the streets. . Wanted to be a good role model for the girls. prove to them and my kids and myself that a life can be lived without mood altering drugs. Be mindful of what you put into your body as it is your temple. . so much more comfortable with the quick fix .. Head stuffed up, take a pill. I don't want to experience any physical discomfort. I guess that makes me weak. 

Should probably take the princess to have her nails clipped and teeth cleaned. .Ole Mr Hobo Grey still comes around occasionally, I feed him the canned food that Stumperina doesn't care or is sick of. He never hangs around for long. The gray tabby dumpster cat at work, the one with the mangled hind leg , that I called the animal humane society for, had his leg amputated and is now in a "forever home".The other cats were neutered and one female (the black one that was always hateful, she probably had many health issues) did not wake after her spay. So we are back to 3 cats at the dumpster, I will take pics one evening. 

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3:30pm same day

I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO RELAX!! 

I work hard for my vacation days. Drinking coffee , eating a tomato sandwich and watching a movie on Amazon called, " The Wave".. Nice reminder about how quickly things go downhill after that first drink 😂  oh .. I do have some good news to share.. My blood pressure was down for the first time in years. I credit that to the cat.




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